Fear of judgment and writing anyway

· Roberto Sirolo · 4 min read

Many people who can't finish a piece don't have a problem with ideas or with time: they have someone in their head reading as they write, and that someone is wrinkling their nose. It's one of the most common and least talked-about forms of the block, and it's tackled with practical measures, not with encouragement.

The imagined reader over your shoulder

When you write, you're often not alone: there's an imagined reader judging every sentence. They might have the face of a critic, a parent, a former teacher, a friend who writes better than you. It doesn't matter who they are: their effect is that you write on the defensive, choosing words so as not to be picked up on rather than to say what you mean.

The first step is to notice they're there. Many blocked writers have never realised they're writing to please a specific person, often not present and sometimes not even alive.

Writing for no one first

The first draft works better if you write it for no one: not for a publisher, not for beta readers, not for the imagined reader. Just to get to the end of the story and see what shape it has. Telling yourself explicitly "no one will read this until I decide" takes away the imagined reader's right to speak.

It's a useful fiction, not a lie: the draft will become public, but not now, and it doesn't have to be public to be written.

Separating drafting from sharing

The moment you write and the moment you show the text are two different jobs, with different mental states. Mixing them — writing while already thinking about reactions — paralyses both. Keep the two phases distinct: first you get it down, then, in a separate moment and with a different head, you decide what to let people read and who.

This holds inside revision too: first you fix it for yourself, then you look at it through a reader's eyes.

The fear that someone recognises themselves

A specific form of this fear concerns real people: the worry that a family member or friend will recognise themselves in a character and take offence. It's a legitimate worry, but at the first-draft stage it's premature. Write the scene as you need it; the question of how much and how to change the recognisable references is dealt with in revision, in cold blood, when you actually know what stays in the book.

Anticipating that worry while writing makes you self-censor exactly the material that is often the most alive.

The fear doesn't go away: you write with it

Waiting until you "no longer fear judgment" to write seriously means never starting. Many published writers live with that fear on every book; they've just learned not to let it drive their decisions. The realistic goal isn't the absence of fear, it's writing while it's there — lowering the imagined reader's voice enough to hear your own.

You decide when and to whom you show it

Knowing you have control over when and to whom the text becomes visible helps you write more freely. In NovLore the manuscript is private by default, and sharing with a beta reader is a link you generate yourself, time-limited and revocable at any moment: no one reads until you decide, and you can close access whenever you want. The draft stays your own space until you choose otherwise.

Frequently asked questions

Is fear of judgment the same as perfectionism?

They're related but distinct. Perfectionism is the demand that the text be flawless before you move on; fear of judgment is dread of someone's reaction. They often coexist: you file endlessly because you fear the judgment. Tackling one helps with the other.

Should I tell beta readers it's a first draft?

Yes, and it's worth being specific about what you want: "tell me if the story holds up, don't correct the sentences". A reader who knows they're holding a draft gives different, more useful feedback than one who thinks they're reading a finished text.

And if the negative judgment actually comes?

It will, sooner or later, and it's part of the job. The difference is when it comes: a judgment on a text you chose to show, after finishing and revising it, can be handled. An imagined judgment on a text not yet written just blocks you.

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